daily totals

$35 an hour, 10 hours, 3500 square feet, 46 tables, 2 games of beer pong, and a room full of drunks. 4 resumes dispersed. 4 hours designing a business card. Free for a total of $17.98. 21 days shipping. 1/2 bottle of wine. No dinner. 18 surreptitious steps from the front door to my bed. 1 pathway laid: 1 bag, 2 shoes, 1 shirt,1 pants, 1 bra, underpants. (Sigh). 213 salty tears into 4 pillows, fluffed, folded, and scrunched until I fall into the memory of a shoulder. Too long since I’ve had one other than my own. Alone. Too many doubts. $42 for window shades. 5 story construction across the street. Fully naked. 3 whistles. Before they got my attention. 2.5. miles around the park. Sometimes more, sometimes less. Sometimes fast, mostly slow. $3 organic greens on the way home. 2 eggs, 7 minutes boiled. 1 batch of granola cooked 10 minutes too brown. One eye blurs. One knee sore. Too many years to mention. Alone. 4 Steinbeck novellas. 4 nights of insomnia. 4 monthly bills. 1 pair of shoes on the wish list, 4 inches, $248. 5 emails. 2 friends fired. 0 phones calls. Too many excuses. 5 websites. 2 movies. An ocean of gossip. 3 hours wasted.