telephone

“Oh you’re there. I just want you to know that your whole relationship with me everything about you is an offense to me and offended me and pissed me off. Did you get my last message about me being a bad father, and Tim being a great dad now? You didn’t hear that one? Well, you should go and f*ck him, you know, you fickle cunt because I don’t care. You offend me on every f*cking level. You offend me on every f*cking level. I despise you. I don’t want you back. You have proven yourself to me. You’re not a f*cking woman I want. You can’t hang. You’re not a f*cking woman. You’re a f*cking fake. You’re a f*cking sham. You don’t know what the f*ck it means to make a man happy. You didn’t make me f*cking happy. I couldn’t make you happy with the BEST I DID FOR ANYBODY, EVER! EVER. You f*cking glum cunt! You didn’t f*cking crack a smile with the tree ceremony out there. Nothing. What the f*ck do I have to do? And remember whose f*cking roof your under. You ingrate bitch. And that’s it! Okay. The game’s over. Let the new games begin so you can get it on with anybody else and your son can watch it. What is it? Number 45 he’s going to have to look at? F*cking good. I’m so f*cking sorry I had a child with you. Now I am. Now that I see you. I hope you f*cking don’t sleep. I hope you f*cking waste. You f*cking ruined me. You f*cking ingrate. I ‘m so mad. I’m so angry. And this is not the nicotine this is the truth. You don’t fucking love me one bit. You know it. You using bitch.”

kissy-kiss

How to kiss with passion:
Are you a good kisser? Anyone can be with the right technique. You will need a partner you feel passionate about and a comfortable space such as a couch.
Step 1. Brush your teeth floss and use mouthwash bad breath is the ruination of good kissing. At the very least have a mint.
Step 2. Sit with your partner preferable in private. Public displays of affection may be fun for you but they make most everyone else uncomfortable.
Step 3. Relax and clear your mind. Focus only on the person with you.
Step 4. Angle your face to avoid crunching noses
Step 5. Lean into the person until your lips touch. Keep lip contact soft and gentle in the beginning.
Step 6. Experimental with different movements and techniques, for instance, gently
suck on your partners lower lip or caress lips lightly with tongue.
Step 7. Open your mouth enough to slip your tongue out. Slowly slip your tongue into your partners mouth, start exploring the inside of each others mouth Keep slow and soft Not darting or invasive. Breath through your nose
Step 8. Come up come air by kissing partners face, ears, and neck even giving them the occasional soft nip or gently tugging on their hair in the heat of the moment.
Step 9. Use your hands. Strokes and caresses.
Step 10. Practice makes perfect.

Beauty

I personally believe that US Americans are unable to do so because uh... Some people out there in our nation don’t have maps and I believe that our education like such as in South Africa and the Iraq everywhere like such as and I believe that they should our education over here in the US should help the US or should help South Africa and should help the Iraq and the Asian countries so we will be able to build up our future (for our children.)

Red

fake tits

"You need a fucking kick up the ass for being a bitch, c*nt, gold digging, whore with a pussy son. And I want my child and no one will believe you. So f*ck you. And I’m not giving you my house and you can rot unless you crawl back, s*ck my cock and say you’re sorry, in that order! Do you understand me? You f*cking offend my f*cking maleness, my masculinity, my being, my soul! And you call me a sinner. You are a f*cking moving violation. If you get raped its your fault for showing off your fake tits. Like they’re some special deal? How much did they cost, those fakers? You complain about mastitis? They’re fake baby. Come on, you got little bladders in there. You think I’m an idiot? You need to say a lot to assuage my insanity because you’ve made me this way! You’re all a bunch of f*cking using c*nts. You’re like every other f*cker. Say thank you every 5 goddamn minutes and not call me mean and not look at me sideways just suck my cock. You fucking c*nt, That’s all your f*cking good for. That’s about all your f*cking good at.
You there?

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whitehall station

"ew. Grape."

(pause)

She has a line of sweat beneath her bra line. A ring on every finger. She licks her lips, her teeth. Touching them with the tip of her manicured nails.

"Alot more people since they got rid of the W. Even at this time of night."

A sparkle in her eye. Licking her lips. A good hair product keeping her curls in ringlets.

"My lips taste like grape. My boyfriend was drinking grape juice. We were kissing. He lives in Staten Island. I live in queens. We had ice cream. Diner. Kissing in the park. He told me, 'I love you.' He asks to kiss me. Asks to hold me. Asks to touch me. Makes sure I'm ready. I just got out of a relationship. 9 years. He was abusive. Mentally. Physically. He's a gentleman. He kisses my hand. We were at a bookstore. And this guy says you make a really cute couple. He bought me the last Twilight. He knows I love them. Everything that has to do with Vampires. All the books. All the tv shows. We were in the park and he starts nibbling on my neck. Like this. And it drives me crazy. I'm like 'we're going to do it right now if you don't stop.' I have a rule. It's silly, I know. Three months. I need to be sure of my feelings you know.

We cant go to his house. Too small. A studio. Can't go to my house. My ex lives in the basement. We're married actually. I live upstairs with my parents. We can't kick him out. He has no where to go. My parents feel bad for him. I feel bad. I don't hate him. I haven't loved him for 9 months. We haven't had sex in a year.

You wanna see a picture? People say we look alike. What do you think? That's my dog. I got her. I had my head on his shoulder. He craddled my face. He touches my face. He lifts it like this and says, 'I love you.' I said, "ditto" He says, 'that's from Ghost.' I say, 'I know that's how I say i love you. Ditto.' I am happy. Here's me and my ex. Who do you think's cuter?

Hysteria/hysterical

I have plenty of energy to drive over there and I will. Do you understand me? So just fucking listen to me. Listen to my ranting. Listen to what you do to me. You’re a pain in the ass. You make my life so fucking difficult. To be a woman that fucking supports me instead of a woman who sucks off me. And just fucking sucks me dry. And wants and wants and wants. This relationship if you’re a good woman and you love me. I don’t believe you anymore. I’m sick of your bullshit. Has any relationship ever worked with you? No. Shut the fuck up. I know i'm behaving like this because I know absolutely that you do not love me and you treat me with no consideration. I love you because i've treated you with every kindness ever consideration you rejected. I will be happy. Fuck you. Get the fuck away from me. But my daughter isn’t born yet. Alright. Now you have one more chance. And I mean it. Now fucking go if you want, but I will give you one more chance. You make me want to smoke, you fucked my day up, you only care about yourself when i've been so fucking good to you. Shut the fuck you. You should just fucking smile and blow me. Cause I deserve it. Who the fuck cares! We agreed nothing. You agreed. You just fucking expect shit. Go to the fucking Jacuzzi by yourself. Go fuck the fucking Jacuzzi. It’s a shame. You have no fucking soul. My soul is screaming because you don’t have one to join mine. You have no fucking soul. You can’t give a fuck. I left my wife because we had no spiritual common ground. You and I have none. Zero. You wont even fucking try. You don’t care you don’t care. Fuck you. You hurt me so fucking bad. You insult me with every fucking look. Every Breath. With every fucking heartbeat, every fucking selfish heart beat that you have. What! What! You apologize for nothing? Well then you’re a dishonest cunt. Because you need to apologize for a reason. Peace. You have it out for me and instinctually I feel that. I will not be patronized by you and your dishonesty. You apologize because you know your wrong. If you will not fucking accept that then get the fuck out. I will make your goddamn life miserable. Alright? What? What? I need a woman. Not a fucking little girl with a fucking dysfunctional cunt. I need a fucking woman. I don’t need medication. You need a bat to the side of the head. Alright? How about that? You need a fucking doctor. You need a fucking brain transplant. You need a fucking, you need a fucking soul. I need medication? I need someone who fucking treats me like a man. Like a human being. With kindness. Who understands what gratitude is because I fucking bend over backwards with my balls in a knot to do it all for her and she treats me like shit. Like a fucking sour look that’s says I'm mean. What the fuck is that? This is mean. Get it? You get it now? What mean is? Get it? You don’t fucking care about me. I’m having a hard time and you yank the rug. You bitch. You fucking selfish bitch. Don’t you dare hand up on me. You hang up I'm coming over there. You fucking cunt. I’m coming to my house. You’re in my house, honey. Ill call the police and tell them someone’s in my house. My house. How bout that? I don’t involve the police in anything cause I stand up for myself, you you weak cunt . Why don’t you fuck off to the cunt bitch Alyssa's, she was fucking making eyes at me. ‘She would have sucked me in 5 seconds. Take that one up with her. I was trying to spare your goddamn feelings. She would have blown me in 5 seconds. She’s not your friend. You don’t have any fucking friends except me and you treat me like shit. So that’s why I'm so fucking angry. I don’t have any friends. I try to make one from you and you treat me like shit. And you fucking used me. The fucking career is over. And you lit out of here faster than you ever have before. And you’ll be at Alyssa’s place. You just showed me what you are. Absolutely. Inequitably. Fucking prefect. I believe it now. You’ll find some other fucker to pay for you. Cunt bitch gold-digger cunt whore that’s what you are. You have just proved it. You got out of here in record time. The last three years have been a fucking gravy train for you Oh your all angry now, what? What? Are you threatening me now? I’ll put you in the fucking rose garden you cunt. You understand that cause I'm capable of it. Get a restraining order.

I am here beneath myself

I can sit? I'm sorry I couldn’t hear you. I just want to take a minute. As far as I knew I was being in compliant with um my program… programs… um you know when I would ask to leave town they would give me permission to leave town so that’s all that I knew was coming to me. I wasn’t expecting expecting any special treatment aside from the understanding that I have to provide for myself, I have to work and my schedule, you know, unfortunately is very different and they they were willing to work with me on that and that was the only kind of special treatment that you know if anything they would give me to try and balance their schedules with mine which I really appreciated…um having said that I did, I did do everything I was told to do and did the best I could to… um you know, balance jobs and showing up (sigh) I'm sorry… um in terms of going more than once in a week um some people I know, I know that I was ordered to go once a week um and it wasn’t you know I wasn’t missing the classes just.. I would never do anything like that I was working mostly and um morocco the trip I was working with the children it wasn’t a vacation it wasn’t some sort of a joke um and I respect you I was taking it seriously um and I appreciate the right on programs has done so much to help me finish early because I wanted to make sure that I would com back here making you happy and um the court system show that I meant everything that I put into it and going more than once in a week I would try to do that only because I knew I would have to work the next week I figured and as far as I knew they were okay with this and it was still in compliance that if I did three times a week or two in a week it would make up for the fact that if I had to work the next week then that’s why I wouldn’t be there because I've already done them now so as far as I knew that was in compliance if I had not known had I been you know taken aside and told that in detail then that would have been a different story I'm not taking this as a joke its my life and its my career and its something that I have worked for my entire life and you know I've learned form my experiences I take responsibility for my actions and I've tried to do the best that I can in the past few weeks since I was here last which is the only time I've been in… you know… present in front of a judge in any of my situations in terms of this specific case this is the only time you know honestly it did wake me up yes of course it scared me and it also confused me because I was there thinking it was okay that I missed those classes and I I didn’t had I known differently again like I said I would have taken it you know I would have made sure that I was in town each week and I would have balanced my work around that because id rather you know be working in the long run rather than dealing with this kind of thing the rest of my life um I guess that’s all I really had to say I… its just been such a long haul and I don’t want I don’t want you to think that I don’t respect you and your terms because I really did think that I was doing what I was supposed to do and I mean that with all my heart.